Im happy but there is a heavy feeling of sadness in my heart that I just can't remove. Why am I like this?

This interpretation lead me on a path of self improvement, to fix what I considered to be “wrong” with myself.

When I stopped trying to force myself to be something I am not, I gave myself the freedom of being who I am.

So I finally threw my hands up and said something to the tune of “fuck it, since I can't seem to change, I’ll just be whatever I am then.”

If you’re an atheist, what would be your motive in spreading atheism, and why would you care what others believe?

The sadness was still there.

I was tired of fighting.

It’s the most beautiful and liberating thing in the world.

When have you been in an accident where the other person involved blatantly lied to the police about what transpired?

It’s impossible to overstate the freedom and peace I discovered, and I realized the only one who had been keeping those from me was… me and my imagined standards and expectations for how I had imagined I should be.

In the absence of a should, I was free to be as I am.

Most people that know me would probably describe me as a social, happy, and somewhat quirky person with a twisted sense of humor.

What are your thoughts about Hulk Hogan at the Republican National Convention in support of Trump and ripping his shirt off? Did he exaggerate?

And the sadness?

You are like me, then.

You are the masterpiece you came here to discover.

What does it mean to dream about demons possessing people, and what can be done about this dream that keeps occurring for years?

But unlike before, there is no more resistance to the sadness.

It’s difficult to put into words exactly what caused what, but to the best of my ability to describe it, I felt as if my will to keep fighting was beaten right out of me.

I was tired of trying and failing.

What is your best gay fantasy?

It’s still here.

It’s here now, writing to you.

Your job is not to be the manager of your life, but the one who discovers yourself fully.

What should I do if a girl whom I love asks me to be her friend?

For much of my adult life, I interpreted this sadness as something being wrong - with either myself or my life in general.

What I am trying to say is that when you stop trying to change yourself into something you are not, you give yourself the gift of discovering yourself as you already are.

Needless to say, my failed attempts to fix my sadness simply brought me more pain and suffering.

Most people aren’t following this important dietary advice. Are you? - The Washington Post

Be who you already are.

So if you are sad - like me - then be sad.

Now, this may sound like a story of failure and giving up, but it’s actually a story of liberation.

What is the most overrated pleasure? Why?

Without resistance, sadness has a sense of beauty and depth I cannot find otherwise in life.

I had run out of hope.

It wasn’t until about 10 years ago that I finally fell out of that ferris wheel of trying and failing to fix myself.

Why do I get stressed when I go to bed?

But no matter what I read or practiced, I could never make the sadness budge for longer than a few fleeting moments - and even then, it was likely due to me being distracted from the sensation of sadness rather than anything actually shifting.

What most people don’t know unless they’ve looked more closely is that there is also an element of deep, profound sadness that has always been with me since as long as I can remember.